13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance, admitting that they were foreigners and strangers on earth. 14 People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15 If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.
I've been asking myself the question lately "Janene...what do you yearn for"? Today..I'd have to say I'm not proud of my answer. If I am truthful, I have been yearning for down time. I yearn for time to veg out and do nothing. I yearn to relax when I want and in the way I want. I yearn for my own desires. That's likely because Jesus has been talking with me about wanting my down time to be for Him. He has been saying things like..."Sure you have time to pursue me diligently...why don't you use your "me" time and make it "MY" time. So...to make a long story short, I said ok. I didn't have the best attitude, but I did say OK. I know that to move to the next step that He is calling me to...I need to give more and sacrifice more. I know that nothing else is going to fulfill me and I know that in the deepest areas of my soul...He is ALL I long for. The scripture above from Hebrews 11 really spoke to my heart on this subject. Those Biblical heroes listed in the Hall of Faith were not focused on today. The weren't focused on their own desires, needs, or even their "rights". Simply put, they were focused on Heaven. Their eyes were on eternity and the significance they put on eternity was everything to them. My eyes focus on Heaven and eternity and the things God desires for a short time, but then I look for a way to return. I think things like - "Janene you have a right to be happy" or "Janene, you've been working soooo hard to do things for God." Right then and there...I'm no longer a foreigner or stranger on this earth. Instead I start fitting right in. I hate that. I don't want to fit in here. I love the version of this scripture that calls us aliens. So...I guess my prayer for tonight and my yearning for the morning is that I would be a faithful alien.