The last few days have been full of inner turmoil for me. My heart resonates with the words of Job in Job 3:24-26.
For sighing has become my daily food;
my groans pour out like water.
What I feared has come upon me;
what I dreaded has happened to me.
I have no peace, no quietness;
I have no rest, but only turmoil.”
Job had just experienced pain of such magnitude I can't even fathom. His family was gone, His livelihood was gone, his safety net was gone, his wife and friends were hurting more than helping.
Things were pretty bleak. Even after all that...his very first response was to worship. In Job 1:20, after Job was told all the horrible news, He got up, tore his robe, shaved his head, fell to the ground and worshiped.
Those words are a challenge to me this morning. I haven't felt like worshiping lately. I have been caught up in myself, my own problems and my image. I've worried more about what other people think than God. I have turned inward once more and stopped looking upward and outward. When I do that...things don't get better, they get worse. When I focus on me...my world pretty much falls apart. My thoughts are a mess, my relationships are a mess, my emotions are a mess and on and on.
So...I appreciate the reminder from Job this morning. I am planning to worship through my life today and see what God desires.